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Lilith Sahl ([personal profile] lovethisworld) wrote2010-12-28 08:47 pm

RL with Zuko

 [As promised she showed up the morning of December 26th with a small box in hand. Lilith wasn't quite sure where to go. Unlike Azula, she never did make frequent trips to her friend's country. It couldn't be too hard to find the Fire Lord in the Fire Nation, right?

Lilith sincerely hoped Zuko was in a spot easily accessible to strange women who clearly did not belong here.]
flammatory: ((iroh) that hat is ridiculous)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-11 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
And you were just fine with that?!

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-11 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
It was difficult but, I didn't regret caring for them.
flammatory: ((anger) perseverence)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-12 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
I do. I hate it.

...Can I tell you a secret? Something you can't tell Azula, ever.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-12 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
Of course you can. It will stay between us.
flammatory: ((emo) pensive)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-12 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
You can't tell her, [repeats Zuko, deadly serious.] Not for any reason.

My father... he's still alive. Aang took away his bending; he's in prison. The whole country thinks he's dead except for his guards.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-12 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Lilith nods, a very rare coldness seeps into her voice.]

Knowing he is alive would only give him the chance to hurt her more than he already has.
flammatory: ((regret) more woe)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-13 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
And manipulate her into causing a civil war. It's stupid, but even after everything she's done, I hate keeping this from her. She has a right to know.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-13 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
You're a good older brother, Zuko. There's nothing stupid about that.
flammatory: ((emo) stubborn and a teenager)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-14 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
You might be okay with feeling something for someone and not having it returned, but all it is for me is painful.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-14 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Would it help if I told you that would never be an issue for us?
flammatory: ((emo) got what I wanted)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-15 08:40 am (UTC)(link)
... [Glances over at her without turning his head.] It doesn't help everything, but it helps something.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-16 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
Zuko, may I ask you something personal?
flammatory: ((surprise) Uncle?)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-16 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
Sure. What is it?

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-16 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
What are your feelings regarding me?
flammatory: ((toph) field trip?)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-16 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
My f-feelings regarding-- [as he stumbles over his words, he starts to blush a little]

Why do you want to know?

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-16 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
I'm curious. [she chuckles] Will you tell me?
flammatory: ((regret) what I'll do)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-16 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
You're... you're like my uncle, [he admits, clearly uncomfortable. He trusts she won't take that too literally.] It's not the same, exactly, because he-- he followed me around the world no matter what I was doing.

But it feels similar.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-16 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose I have been lax in following you around. [She jokes.]

I understand. Thank you for indulging me.
flammatory: ((folded) Katara shut ur mouf)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-16 08:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't need you every second of the day, [he grumbles, folding his arms and sinking back into the cushions.] I'm not Azula.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-17 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
No, you are not. [She nods in agreement, sinking back with him.] I am happy that you are in a place in your life that you don't need someone like me to regularly help you.
flammatory: ((aang) clueless)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-17 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
It took a while. And it's not like I could never use your help.

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-17 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
It's always there when you need it even if it isn't every second of the day. [a pause] I really do love you both the same way, Zuko.
flammatory: ((anger) perseverence)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-17 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
You-- [abruptly he stands up, backing away a pace of two, still facing her] Why are you saying that? That's not-- I never thought you did! Everyone always likes Azula better!

[Everyone being his father.]

[identity profile] hislostlover.livejournal.com 2011-01-17 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
Because I was afraid that was what you truly thought. [Lilith sighs]

Zuko, I never had the chance to tell you before that was the way I felt. I regretted it the entire time you were off the community so I thought today I could finally say it. I want you to remember that if nothing else.
flammatory: ((regret) tragic look)

[personal profile] flammatory 2011-01-17 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
[He can't help but immediately assume she's lying. The thought had already occurred to him, the instant after she'd said it. But Lilith doesn't lie, which means it has to be true.]

...Are you telling the truth? [he finds himself asking anyway, unsure.] You don't have to pretend. I'm fine with how things are between us, I don't need-- I don't need anything else.

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